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Monday, November 13, 2006

*[[ A break from this holiday ]]*

I'm feeling very very confused... rah... I know that it's probably just me and my mindset that is complicating things... but anyway the point is that I'm still confused... Grr... it's like I have choir 3 times a week or more that takes up more than half my holidays... and I have church that takes up 2 days a week... and there're also other smaller-scale service learning stuff like YLEP and HCNAC... ok whatever I've stated is copable... but then what's making things worse is that everyone's planning to go out... so you have classmates, churchmates, OGmates (? ok but that never turned out), ex-classmates, family, cousins etc>? and some don't only go out once you see... and aside from going out, you have to worry about your holiday homework awaiting you at home... and worry about doing the extra studying to make up for the poor performance this year... and in the midst of all these, suddenly someone asks you to go for tuition with her, and suddenly another service learning project in Sec 4 is revived and all ready to be alive... and help me, this is at the cost of not participating in the very enriching Porgy and Bess concert, not participating in choir CIP, quitting Interact Club (unofficially though).... and well, I don't know... my sister has been bugging me to go out every day of last week and I kept telling her to wait... and yet she's been waiting fruitlessly... and I don't give her a reply... feel really bad but what to do. It seems that I'm going out almost every day of the week already... =( some people might think that's good since they can't stand the bore of being at home... but let me tell you too much is draining as well... I NEED A BREAK FROM THIS HOLIDAY!!! lol... I want a true holiday... when I can really do anything I want as it comes... I don't want to have fixed schedules all planned out... it's just so stressful and painful to realise that my holidays are filled even before promos had started... GOSH. Just get me out of this RACE. I want to stop running... just for a while... I'm very very very tired...

Does Anybody Hear Her
Artist: Casting crowns
Album: Lifesong

she is running
a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
she is trying
but the canyon's ever widening
in the depths of her cold heart
so she sets out on another misadventure just to find
she's another two years older
and she's three more steps behind

does anybody hear her? can anybody see?
or does anybody even knows she's going down today
under the shadow of our steeple
with all the lost and lonely people
searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
does anybody hear her? can anybody see?

she is yearning
for shelter and affection
that she never found at home
she is searchingfor a hero to ride into ride in and save the day
and in walks her prince charming
and he knows just what to say
momentary lapse of reason
and she gives herself away

if judgement looms under every steeple
if lofty glances from lofty people
can't see past her scarlet letter
and we never even met her

~.*hUiYiNg*.~ says Amen. @ | Monday, November 13, 2006

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