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Saturday, June 03, 2006

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oh no. I think I haven't been spoken to so harshly by my friends in a long time. Quite scary.

"you mean you haven't printed for each of them at all!?"

ok it's not harsh. I guess it's my fault for not being able to sense the urgency of the conference. I mean he's putting in so much for something he organised and is waiting for it to be a repeat of SLC. that kind of impact he wants to achieve. that kind of pride awaiting. and something he so kindly invited me for to work with him... and yet what did I see this conference as? I did see it as important, but then I always put choir first. then I keep giving excuses that choir is taking up my time. and that's why I can't attend that very urgent meeting. ok i duno, i'm always giving excuses right. I should've made arrangements with someone esle who was gg and told him what to brief the facils abt. oh no...

then again, I had sent the files to 2 of my fellow conference mates for them to help me with it, but then I received so little help?! and not being experienced in organising these kinda stuff, I needed some vetting of the document lar, but they NEVER replied. ok never mind, I completed the document myself then. Soon it started to dawn upon me that he put so much trust into allowing me to organise those activities. I know they're not the highlight of the conference or anything but the supporting activities are still v v impt in creating the success of the whole conference. sigh. I should just have more confidence in myself lar. =(

Preparing for a conference is like preparing for a concert. you invite people to come. and you tell them all the details, etc. so you can't change things. when it comes, you have to face it already. and there's no such thing as piaing last min - we need to be prepared! haiz. why is this repeating. I must learn and change. sigh, I'm really so sorry for not turning up for the meeting although I can't help it due to syf recording which is definitely priority.

anyhow, I'm glad that I attended the full SYF recording sessions. coz I got the best of one world at least. I guess you have to set yr priorities right. and for me it's CHOIR FIRST. so I'm so sorry about putting the conference second. ok lar not that it's less impt. I guess with better time management, it's always possible to juggle a few commitments at once. sigh. TIME MANAGEMENT - something I definitely have to work on. or rather, I've been working on it for the past 16 years of my life and I still haven't accomplished it. =(

~.*hUiYiNg*.~ says Amen. @ | Saturday, June 03, 2006

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