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Sunday, April 02, 2006

*[[ AMBIVERSION ]]*

Do you think I'm an introvert or extrovert? maybe I'm an ambivert - introverted at home, extroverted in school. School is a place created for extroverts anyway; society forces us to be extroverted...otherwise we can't survive. I duno, but I'm finding myself becoming quieter in school...I think. Orientation was crazy and I remember not being able to identify with myself hah coz I just didn't recognise that person. Maybe I was just trying to fit into a mask I created, hoping that people will know me by that ideal image? I'm not sure either. Or maybe I'm really extroverted? haha. In sec 4 I went for this tuition and someone told me he thinks I'm an introvert. lol. never mind.

Anyway, I was just surfing around and chanced upon a few websites:
http://www.knowyourtype.com/introversion.html

Introversion (I)
Key words: inner world • ideas • reflection • depth

People who prefer introversion are energized and excited when they are involved with the ideas, images, memories, and reactions that are a part of their inner world. Introverts often prefer solitary activities or spending time with one or two others with whom they feel an affinity, and they often have a calming effect on those around them.Introverts take time to reflect on ideas that explain the outer world. With their orientation to the inner world, introverts truly like the idea of something, often better than the something itself, and ideas are almost solid things for them.
People who prefer introversion may:

be seen as calm and "centered" or reserved
feel comfortable being alone and like solitary activities
prefer fewer, more intense relationships
sometimes spend too much time reflecting and not move into action quickly enough
sometimes forget to check with the outside world to see if their ideas really fit their experience

http://www.knowyourtype.com/extraversion.html
Extraversion (E)
Key words:outer world • people • action • breadth

People who prefer extraversion are energized by active involvement in events, and they like to be immersed in a breadth of activities. They are most excited when they are around people, and they often have an energized effect on those around them. Extraverts like to move into action and to make things happen--extraverts usually feel very at home in the world.With their orientation to the outer world, extraverts often find their understanding of a problem becomes clearer if they can talk out loud about it and hear what others have to say.People who prefer extraversion may:

be seen as "go-getters" or "people-persons"
feel comfortable with and like working in groups
have a wide range of acquaintances and friends
sometimes jump too quickly into activity and not allow enough time for reflection
sometimes forgets to pause to clarify the ideas that give aim or meaning to their activities

http://cfge.wm.edu/documents/Introversion.html

Some Characteristics of Introverts:
· Are territorial - desire private space and time· Are happy to be alone - they can be lonely in a crowd· Become drained around large groups of people; dislike attending parties· Need time alone to recharge· Prefer to work on own rather than do group work· Act cautiously in meeting people· Are reserved, quiet and deliberate· Do not enjoy being the center of attention· Do not share private thoughts with just anyone· Form a few deep attachments· Think carefully before speaking (practice in my head before I speak)· See reflection as very important· Concentrate well and deeply· Become absorbed in thoughts and ideas· Limit their interests but explore deeply· Communicate best one-on-one· Get agitated and irritated without enough time alone or undisturbed· Select activities carefully and thoughtfully

Some Characteristics of Extraverts
· Are social - they need other people· Demonstrate high energy and noise· Communicate with excitement and enthusiasm with almost anyone in the vicinity· Draw energy from people; love parties· Are lonely and restless when not with people· Establish multiple fluid relationships· Engage in lots of activities and have many interest areas· Have many best friends and talk to them for long periods of time· Are interested in external events not internal ones· Prefer face-to-face verbal communication rather than written communication· Share personal information easily· Respond quickly

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they were talking on the phone one night about the image that they wanted others to see... Sometimes, they feel that they will be better off hiding their thoughts and emotions so that they seem to have a less transparent character, so that others will never come to fully understand them...and others will not look at them simply and take them for granted or something like that. Maybe they enjoy that distance on the surface...but deep down, for them, it is against nature to lean towards introversion because it is just not themselves...so what's the point?

Anyway, take a look at this entry from http://albakzapadana.blogspot.com/:

I am sure that most of the people are afraid to show their feelings and from time to time to explodeâ€¦Words, opinions, thoughts, are running through their minds, trying to escapeâ€¦But because of the fear for what the others might say about them, they close the door and keep everything inside themâ€¦and that is not good at allâ€¦Sometimes you have to let yourself go and try to scream, try to communicate your feelings, try to see how it is to say what you are thinkingâ€¦for realâ€¦not using a mask. If you think that others like you for that mask you are wrong, so wrongâ€¦in fact, they hate you for thatâ€¦they consider you a weak person, not having his own opinion, an actorâ€¦that sometimes can forget what part is he playing. Sometimes caught in the play you might not know what youâ€™re true feelings are anymore, and confused by this you might believe that the false ones are for real. But that is wrongâ€¦you only hurt yourself, and make you more confuse than you thinkâ€¦And that is the time you have to put yourself an question mark. You have to change it, and change it for you first, not for the others, stop caring about the others opinion. Try to think about you first, be a little selfishâ€¦and thenâ€¦try to think that everything around you is beautiful, the world is beautiful as the way it is not the way you are making it to be. And after you are doneâ€¦give your best shot, and SCREAM, feel how the life explodes in you, how your feelings are getting out of the shell. If you are doing that already you may consider yourself alive.
That is my scream against you all actors in the worldâ€¦Stop playing!

~.*hUiYiNg*.~ says Amen. @ | Sunday, April 02, 2006

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