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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

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HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MING WEI!!!
yay...my online friend for FOUR YEARS. Can't believe that our "friendship" actually survived four years, not knowing at all what the other person looks like! Then finally see each other this year in HC...LOL. Quite cool~ =)

The feeling of being around many friends is really great, when you are just talking and laughing and sharing and singing and essentially just having fun! You'll feel at the top of the world...like there's never gonna be an ending...But soon, you'll have to go home... so you promise to meet up again... and the next time you meet up, the same thing happens - everyone gets high and you enjoy yourself to your utmost... I mean, who wouldn't like that.... Who wouldn't like to be around friends all the time? I'm sure everyone does lor, after all, no man is an island:)
But after a while,don't you feel weird? coz I do. I feel like I'm just...floating around... Don't know why. Perhaps it's because I always have that sense of insecurity. ouch. Remember I told you I can't identify what it was? I realise that it's not coz I'm afraid of losing those happy moments... and yeah sometimes I'm afraid of the ending of those happy moments but that's not the main point... I think it's more of coz I'm afraid that the friendships that I'm forging are not as deep as I thought or sth like that... I have no idea. Maybe coz I take certain friendships v seriously...like when I feel that I am ready to trust that person...then I feel that we will be talking about deeper stuff. ok. maybe I feel that when we talk about "deep" stuff (however u define it), it means we trust each other...and when we trust each other, it means that there's something significant in that friendship that is shared only between both of us... ok, that's being v idealistic? I duno. But there're so many treasures in friendship, really. sigh. I duno what I'm talking about. lol.

Anyway,there's a v fine line between friendship with a guy and BGR I think. and it's quite irritating isn't it. when you find a certain guy a worthy friend, you can't get too close as you would like to be coz he's of the opposite sex. then your friendship is just stuck behind that line. well, maybe it's better for now... but, who knows? of course there's a big risk but...it's really irritating to be blocked off. ha...sometimes I wish lim mian was my boyfriend la...of course im not les la... but I'm talking about the depth that we have reached in our friendship...haha. we even go to east coast park together and cycle and sit by the jetty and just talk... then at night we'll sit by the rock, watch the stars, listening to the waves crashing against the shore.. haha, so fairytale-like.. but it really happened... and I think I never felt a stronger connection than that in my life. sigh. I miss LIM MIAN like crazy. Come to think of it, although I'm considered rather close to my class... it's just different... bleugh.

~.*hUiYiNg*.~ says Amen. @ | Wednesday, March 29, 2006

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