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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

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TOO MANY THINGS TO SAY.

1) I had an OG outing last Saturday (7/1/06)! =) haha photos are in the previous entry. =D I do really miss my OG very much... SAME frequency as we've mentioned many times. Equally enthu AND equally LAME. HAHA. anyway so sorry for the poor organisation such that 13 of us had to walk around Heeren lamely. yea. we all broke our legs... sad caseS. wah ok enough. I caught the disease from Eunice and David. yea but after that we ate at Westbarn Cafe... the food and service were terrible but we had a really enjoyable time chatting and being lame anyway. =p We had a neoprint-taking session after that with a record high of 13 people squashed in the photo such that it was absolutely pointless to argue over the background colour..and had more fun at the arcade (didn't know Jez could ever have arcade tokens with him and that he could dance so well! haha) hmm thereafter we left for Istana Park where we sat in a circle and spent a wonderful time together in the darkness. =p how romantic. LOL.

2) yeah ok i made a new friend David wOw. Firstly, I never knew he could be so lame -_-". Secondly, I never knew he could talk about things that are spoken by the sea on the beach. THirdly, he looks like a pro ping pong player from China.

3) my class really rocks now. SEE. I KNOW I'M RIGHT OK. I'M ALWAYS RIGHT. *EGO* (wow how rare of me =X) no la. I do this only if I'm really passionate about something ok. For example, I would be able to do the same thing if it were about choir: CHOIR ROCKS OK! I KNOW I'M RIGHT AND DON'T DARE YOU DISAGREE. wOw I'm getting super lame but I guess you can't blame me coz I just hosted my class to do the class item and banner thingy since 12pm today and it has already been 12 hours. kk so anyway back to the point. my class really rocks now. haha 20 people turned up for the gathering/meeting today out of 26 people, which is really encouraging =) And almost all 6 people who didn't come were accounted for. hmm. hope we do a great job on campfire night =)

4) I'm learning not to ask a large group of people for their opinions of what to do. Or rather, I will ask them first, and if no one responses, I shall learn to decide for them and tell them my decision coz I know they'll probably say "anything", which is rather irritating haha. I know it's something natural to say and I do that all the time...so yeah, now I'm learning not to do it. I'll never forget what YaWen told me while we were planning for our guiding project at SBWR. We were having some trouble hiring a coach to fetch the participants in from the MRT station to the reserve itself and so I went "aiyah...I duno la...whatever" (as usual), meaning it to be merely a passing remark. However this was rather harshly refuted by YW and she said, exasperated, "Hui Ying! You cannot say 'I duno! Whatever!'" ok I know it may not seem like a large issue, but think this had a large impact on me and I started to get quite conscious whenever I speak. (anyway when people sound harsh I take them very seriously and think through their comments very deeply... heh) I tried to hold back as many "anything la" and "I duno" as possible. During a period of time in sec 4, I was so irritated by myself for saying "I duno" after almost every sentence. ERGH. k that got me really EXASPERATED and spurred me to stop the entire "I duno" issue...... but of course it hasn't stopped... Can't help it but still insert a few "I duno"s into my everyday speech haha. okok I MUST SOUND MORE ASSERTIVE from now on.

5) Don't know what's happening to me but I'm changing really quickly. I feel really uncomfortable in my "new body". I mean, all of a sudden, people are saying that I'm really enthu and open-minded and lame and that I may be a potential CT rep?! ok for those who don't know me well, to even CALL me a POTENTIAL CT rep is really out-of-the-blue. For those who have known me, just look at me in Sec 3-4? I'm such a teeny-weeny figure with no leadership positions or whatsoever and I have terrible stage fright speaking in front of people and I always say "I duno" and my teachers all said that I was pessimistic and self-conscious and had low confidence. (ok something along those lines) Then what am I doing now? Suddenly I realise I can lead cheers! The class came to my house (even my close friends haven't been to my house before...or only been once at most...and all of them come one by one to do projects and tt sort of thing)! wOw! (EH I'm not being a "show-off-pretending-to-be-humble" ok) ya so anyway the point is I still don't know who I am. Identity crisis. argh. I almost died on the spot when they said I could be CT rep. shit lar I'm really freaked out. not that I haven't thought of being CT rep, but then you know it's just something in my DREAMS kinda thing? it's just something nice to dream about... but I think I would feel a lot better sitting at the sidelines... kk. so now I'm scared. kk but then again they say that you'll only grow if you put yourself in an uncomfortable place, where it's above your level but not too challenging such that it's beyond your standards. kk i duno. whatever la. SEE..SEE.SEE. argh "i duno whatever la" just came out from my mouth so easily. (ok it came out of my hands but nvm I'm being lame again - Eunice's and David's fault) ALRIGHT!!!!! STOP! ENOUGH. I'm thinking too much again. stop. stop. just let everything "shun4 qi2 zi4 ran2" (quotes Sin Hwee)

6) I think I am starting to like a guy. HAHAHAHAHA. kk just joking la. this is just for entertainment purposes - that is, if you even managed to read up till this line. HAHA. GOODBYE! NO GOSSIPS! HAHA! =P

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