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Thursday, December 29, 2005

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Hello 'GREAT FRIEND CUM SOULMATE',

(Can you see the smile in my tears?)

I miss you.

Haven't seen you in such a long time!

Although we keep smsing each other asking when the other is free, somehow we can never finalise any date to meet up. haha... I end up going out a lot more often with my other friends than you whom I consider my closest pal... But I definitely think about you really often... haha... anyway now that we're (FINALLY) going to meet up before school re-opens, I'm all prepared to treasure that day and make sure that it makes an impression deep enough in our hearts to last us till the next meeting.

I guess if you look at things more positively, it's good that we don't meet up that often. In this way, we'll treasure all the times we spent together more and not take each other for granted. Anyway, in JC, we'll probably meet up less, especially if we go to different classes...so hopefully we'll soon get used to it but never forget what we went through together ok? oh man. I really feel like crying. I remember the week before the examination period when I really couldn't survive without u. Everytime you weren't in school, I felt so alone and I knew I definitely needed you right beside me to support the weak old me. And during the exam period we had to keep calling and smsing each other coz we just had to hear each other's voice for comfort and confirmation that both of us are in an equally dead state for the exams coz we probably only completed 2 chapters of Chem at 10pm the night before the paper. wow. but it's really amusing if you think about it (now)...><

School's starting in 4 days. Everyone's really excited and nervous all at the same time heh. Anyway don't be scared yeah! Remember the sms you sent me saying we will smile our way to HCI! hahahhaha. yeah but it's true ok! We did reasonably well, considering how much (or rather, how little) we studied for our exams! =D But whatever it is, we 2 idiots better BETTER (and I DO MEAN IT) learn our BIG, FAT LESSON about you-know-what and not keep saying on the phone "omg. next year I won't do it again." URGH AHAHAHAH. at least we improved for HISTORY. Yeah with Joanna's help, thankfully, we got our A1s (after moderation).

ok. and thanks for trusting me with you-know-what and sharing your heart n soul with me. I nvr really knew for sure how close u 2 were, but I must say that I do admire ur friendship n I think it's really sweet! aww...hai. Anyway I'm really filled with a mix of emotions to hear that she's leaving. I miss her warmth...well that's what I feel whenever I see her although we're not that close. sigh. But if that's her choice, then I wish her all the best there! And I hope that you 2 will remain soulmates, such that you'll find support in her as she finds in u although u 2 may nt be physically together... Whatever she may have said, I think it's possible to remain v close friends though u are miles apart...as long as u make the effort to maintain the friendship. coz if the friendship is really sincere, why should u just let go?! I know there's a saying that goes something like we have to accept that people will keep entering and leaving one's life... but I think the leaving part is always hard. =(

hmm. I'm getting groggy and have no idea what I'm talking about anymore. The entire thing above may be total rubbish so forgive me, although I know you're probably used to it already. And I shouldn't say everything here anyway.

Tell u more in 3 days while savouring saltiness by the waves and sweetness in our hearts.

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FRIENDSHIP.FRIENDSHIP.FRIENDSHIP.FRIENDSHIP.
I think I'm (a bit?) too obsessed with it.
shit lar. what am I doing. I think about it too much.
keep thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking. ok nvm.
am I crazy?
I actually sent this guy ex-classmate an x'mas card for the first time since i knew him in p5. erm. weird. but I just knew I would feel good if I did it. or is it coz I'm such an insecure person that I have to send x'mas cards to 'secure' the friendship? ok nono that sounds psychotic. maybe I was scared that we'll not be speaking to each other anymore once we start JC life.
hmmmmmmmmmmm.well.
I guess I just love making friends and maintaining and developing those closer friendships for a loooong, looooong time.
yeah.
nothing wrong with that right.
see. im so insecure.
need to talk to myself and get assurance and RE-assurance from myself.
okay. in 5 more days I'll get to make more friends. Let's see how these friendships turn out to be =p

~.*hUiYiNg*.~ says Amen. @ | Thursday, December 29, 2005

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