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Sunday, November 06, 2005

*[[ irritated =( ]]*

Why do I find myself in a fix?
It's the hols!! And I want to relax!! Yet I can never seem to relax fully with so many things at the back of my mind! ok i have to plan these things or esle all the schedules will keep crashing:
1) sabbaticals: 7nov - 11nov
2) NRP: today - 19nov (symposium) - 25Nov (submission of final report), settling and finalising everything after that till duno when
3) Guiding at Sungei Buloh: middle of nov - 27nov
4) Trip to Europe: 24Nov - 5 Dec (most likely)
5) Carolling: 2nd half of Nov - end Dec
6) Grad Night: 8 Dec
and whateverotherthingysbutnvmaboutthemnow, etc.

ok I think I can't go for carolling anymore. I'll just pay them back by watching their performance I guess. AHHHHHHHH but everyone esp Colleen is going to KILL ME. fine. I shall have to learn to be thick-skinned and face it. My fault for suddenly realising what it is to be REALISTIC. damnit.

trip to europe and guiding at sungei buloh will surely clash. and im so deaded for this. I duno which I should go for. ok most ppl will say europe trip is my priority. but then again, I've committed myself to the guiding since June (more than 4 months ago). so unless im really lucky to find that envcomm needs more time to get more participants or something crops up to delay the guiding thing, I probably can't go for the actual guiding and can only help out in the organisation and planning. eeps. sigh, and since my parents are really keen on going to Europe, and airline tickets have to be booked really soon, I have to give them an answer of whether I can really forgo the guiding thing in a day or two.

For NRP, I'm still very confused about the project and whatsoever because I've not touched it for years and years, and I'm quite afraid of the presentation. but nvm about that. I have to STOP THINKING OF SLACKING FOR THE NEXT TWO IRRITATING WEEKS so that I won't embarrass myself in front of all the intellectuals and pros on 19 NOV. Wish me luck. I NEED ABSOLUTE DISCIPLINE.

sabbaticals are starting tomorrow. swimming's the first on the list. great.

grad night is just in the way of EVERYTHING. but nvm. it's a night of fun and games and it gives the gown I bought for prom another chance of proving it is indeed of some use.

ok so now that carolling and guiding are being labelled as 'THE LOWER PRIORITIES', I feel so much more at ease working with just the 'THE HIGHER PRIORITIES', like ESPECIALLY NRP.

OH GOD. and speaking of getting 'stressed up' (yes, what a familiar word), I suddenly remember a call I received just the day before from Kimberly, announcing that the HWACHONG CHOIR AUDITIONS ARE NEXT WEDNESDAY. NOW WHAT? my voice sucks and sucks and sucks to the core. it's airy and backward and I DON'T WANT TO KNOW THAT I CAN'T GET INTO CHOIR and don't tell me i can with such ease and confidence when u havent heard my voice.

yes, and for those who are taking their Olevels, don't get offended by this post. yeah I know this entire thing I'm screaming out loud here is extremely trivial compared to the ALL-IMPORTANT-O-LEVEL-CERT. which makes me even more irritated. YESYES FINE I ADMIT IM LIKE SOME IDIOT WHO IS DAMN PESSIMISTIC AND PROCRASTINISTIC AND IDEALISTIC AND -TIC. YA. HAPPY? whatever. I don't know what to think and I don't know what to think.
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Although I'm feeling extremely irritated right now, I shall still force myself to blog about some events that occurred over the past 2 weeks:

28Oct - Performance by Watoto Children's Choir

31Oct - HCL 'O'-Levels/ Results/ ECP outing

V disappointed with myself for paper 2. didn't know how to do the first 3 zaoju and first tian xie han zi. cloze psge was challenging and the compre was simply unusual where they didn't provide you with anything to copy. I just hope to get the 'normal' mark that everyone gets.

My overall results are average:
L1B3 = 5
percentage = 74.5%

ENG - 71
HCL - 67
MATH - 84
BIO - 76
CHEM - 68
HIST - 77

haha after the HCL olevels, mian and I went out for lunch at coronation. We wanted to eat at 'Cafe Wadever' at first but it was so packed! So we just ate at this shop where ppl can go lanning. Not bad. Quite cheap. Fries, chicken wings and onion rings for $2.80 =) heh, but I guess I would've enjoyed 'Cafe Wadever''s meals better. =p
We went home to get changed and met at Orchard Mrt after that. Took a long bus trip to ECP on bus 16 laughing and crapping and enjoying some sense of peace and ease after enduring the torturing HCL paper and exams and tests and SIAs and all 4 years of secondary school life for that matter.

1Nov - Halloween Party at Jia Lin's house
Dressed up as some skeleton aka star wars thing. Mian wore Tasmanian mask. haha we both got our masks from Toys 'R' Us just an hour before gg for the party... So cool! Everyone was so amused when we stepped into the house. hahahah.

3Nov - Mummy's Birthday Celebration at Oriental Hotel

There was an entire section solely for deserts:
-Chocolate fountain~!
-Drawers and drawers of mousse.
-More than 30 varieties of toppings for a single scoop of ice cream o_O

4Nov - Denise and Jia Lin's Birthday Celebration at Tammy's house/ Stay over at Lim Mian's house

5Nov - Lim Mian

Here are some photos tt I took at mian's house:

yay I love this photo!

looks like we're at Genting Highlands with all the mist around us hahahah.

this photo was taken at tammy's house!

hahah. Mian looks FAIR for once.
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awake and smiling =p

sleeping and smiling =p
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ok. I know I should appreciate every moment in life. But right now I feel like dying. Not that I don't appreciate it. ok not that I appreciate it either. I guess this time's just one of the downs in life. =(

~.*hUiYiNg*.~ says Amen. @ | Sunday, November 06, 2005

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