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Sunday, October 23, 2005

*[[ so near yet so far/ Graduation Ceremony 2005 ]]*

There's one thing I want to do very badly
but it's so inconvenient.
Everytime there is a possibility of achieving it
it'll be cancelled out in the very next moment
how frustrating can it get?

The past 2 times I've got so near
yet we remain as far as before
only because I didn't dare
or perhaps it was inappropriate
or perhaps I wasn't sure if you'd allow it

but it's alright. I'll wait patiently.
I've already been waiting for a couple of years after all.
perhaps because the beacon of light this time was the brightest
yet it was being snatched away from me
I find it hard to bear this disappointment

I'm filled with overwhelming yearnnnnnn......

ahhhhh great. I feel so much better.
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Graduation Ceremony went quite well. :) kinda felt like the last day of school. Just that no one was crying. haha. I DO WISH THAT IT WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL though. I just wanna get out of NYGH and go to HCI. ok do I? No maybe on second thought, I don't. Can't bear to leave a school that made a mark on 1/4 of my life so far that carries with it more than just the building bricks of knowledge, but also friendships etc
haha I felt quite jittery when I went up on stage. I took the certificate from Ms Teo before shaking her hand! And when I bowed to the school, I tilted the cert the wrong way up. ahhaa. then I skipped a little down the stage. lol. it sure felt like a long journey walking up and down the stage. Anyway I thought Mrs Chua and Charmaine from 406 gave great speeches:) Mdm Mak should learn to get to the point. =p

Hmmm I duno why I cried when I hugged Mrs Seah in the Lecture Theatre. She has never taught me personally before - unless you count the time when she went through SRQ and expo with me just the afternoon before the EL EOYs this year. And that day was probably the first time I had ever had a proper conversation with her. haha. I have no idea why I asked to give her a hug. Somehow, I feel I owe her a big part of my life - the entire 2 years of sec 3 and 4. Without her enthusiasm and commitment as the IP coordinator of the PIONEER batch of IP (US! haha..ego), I definitely wouldn't have enjoyed these 2 years of sec sch life tt much. I guess I had to thank her for laying the foundation for the fun and joy I had experienced in every activity that had aimed to nurture us and develop our potential. I guess the tears came when I realised how wrong my first impression of her was. I only found out how accommodating and approachable she actually was so late in the year. Frankly, I had always feared her and had the impression that she was impossible to talk to. When Ms Ng told us that we could share our woes and sorrows with her, I thought that was utterly unachievable because she seemed so distant and cold. Of course I was proven wrong later in the year when my class had a few combined lessons with the class she taught. One major thing I learnt was that she wasn't sarcastic but, in fact, had a great sense of humour by managing a straight face everytime she mentions something funny=D

In the course of my 4 years in NYGH, I think I love the English and Math departments best:) They have the most caring and nurturing teachers in there! haha..Chinese department is the worst. I still can't understand their motive of lowering our grades so that by comparing our school results with our 'O' level results, improvement is guaranteed. Is there a logic in that!? No comments about the Chem department - just that some teachers in there can be rather temperamental and they aren't exactly very encouraging either. hurhur.

ok I better stop. I haven't done any work all day. sigh. I'm such a slacker.
alright. gdbye for now.

~.*hUiYiNg*.~ says Amen. @ | Sunday, October 23, 2005

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