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Thursday, August 18, 2005

*[[ Happy Birthday To Me! =) ]]*

I'm SIXTEEN! :)

but I didn't even feel the teeniest weenist bit of difference when the clock changed from 23:59:59 to 00:00:00. haha, but it quite a weird sensation. While I was looking at my clock, I kept imagining that at 0000 hours, something would click and I would feel as though I've matured. Nothing happened of course. I just got myself amused. =p

Anyway, I should aspire to jump around more and be happy and lively before wrinkles appear or hair recedes due to stress - and not age. =D

hmmm. I feel so pampered today. During recess, my classmates treated me to this delicious chocolate fudge cake! And during lunch, my choirmates treated me to another cream cake! hahaha. and I just started digging into another piece of ice-cream cake which my family bought. ewwww I could barely finish half of it. feel like puking all the cake I've eaten the entire day. but still, THANKS EVERYONE! =D haha, such a wide variety of cakes =) I never had more than one cake for any other birthdays in my life. =x

oh man. birthday = fattening day! =(

Anyway, I really love my 16th birthday... -Not just coz of the cakes which I think I have enough of *grins sheepishly*- but also because I got to celebrate it with beloved family and all the friends I've made throughout my 4 years in NY - my CHOIR batchmates and my CLASS 405! So sweet!!! =) haha. Anyway, I realised something really ironic - all my ex-classmates who wished me a happy birthday were guys. I'm so touched yet heartbroken at the same time coz how could my closer GIRL friends forget something that the more distant guy friends remember?? ha... and it ended up that quite a number of people I haven't even met before in my life remembered my birthday as well. hmm I guess you can't judge how close someone is to you by seeing if he remembers your birthday or not, which is something I used to believe in...heh.

Everyone says that every individual's 16th birthday marks a milestone of his life. It is a new phase that one enters as a young adult. It entitles you to watch NC-16 movies. It tempts you to sneak into M-18 screenings because you have already watched countless NC-16 films before this day. It reminds you of your upcoming "O-levels". It means that you are about to leave a batch of very precious and treasured friends when you go separate ways the next year onwards. It highlights the humble beginnings of your horizontal challenges because you soon realise that your upward growth has ceased. It makes you reflect and ponder over what you have done in the past 16 years of your life, be it nothing or something. ><

For me, I guess it doesn't really matter whether my 16th year is indeed a milestone or not... I guess what's more important is that I don't regret a single bit of my 16 years of journey through life...As I celebrate my 16th birthday today, I find myself powdered with much love and care from the people around me, which is really comforting coz I was feeling rather crestfallen upon receiving such poor results for the recent math test. Everyone was very encouraging and kept telling me to cheer up because it was supposed to be my happy day. haha I couldnt help but tear a little although I tried very hard to hold back my emotions. I mean, I do care about my performance in school, yet I seriously don't know what a few pages containing slashes of blue and red really means when propped up against something like friendship which touches one right at the core of the heart.

I shall stop here though I know it's very abrupt. But my mum came into my room while I was typing this. Somehow we always end up very emotional. But it's ok. I love crying. Makes me feel sane. Yeah gotta relieve all the stress and whatever crap accumulated over the past weeks. heh. And other things. I think I've become a lot closer to my mother this year. yay. I always thought it was quite difficult to tell her what I feel coz I think she doesn't understand. Hm, but it doesn't matter anymore. It's always nice to have someone you love loving you and being by your side.
Yeah train of thought interrupted.bleugh. Gotta do work now. Back to reality. Ha.

Happy Birthday To Me!!! I must learn to love myself......

~.*hUiYiNg*.~ says Amen. @ | Thursday, August 18, 2005

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